I'm thinking about writing a book about philosophy, poker, and life. I think I have a lot to offer the world in two out of three of those catagories. Now of course, when I say i'm thinking about writing a book I mean what all people who will never write a book mean when they utter those words. I want to write a book. But it will probably never happen.
Today I looked at the mirror wall of my uncle and aunt's exercise room and saw The heaviest form of Trevor ever to have stared back at a Trevor. Most people see something like this at least twice in their life and are struck by some sense of urgency or some lingering feeling of self doubt or disgust. I've never weighed over 180 in my life and I'm 6'1" so this is well within my healthy range, yet I know that I'm not in the best shape of my life and the fluctuations in the past year have not been fluctuation from norm to healthy but rather beer gut to norm. However, I fail to feel the aforementioned emotions probably because I don't yet have reason to test my limits of physical ability in Arlington, nor have I been unfortunate in the female department (if anything I've been blessed thus far in DC). My personality isn't affected by my fluctuation, and a poker player doesn't really need to be a health nut.
That being said I'm taking steps to get my fluctuations back on the better side of things. I've come to realize that I'm in my prime years here... we don't get these back, and If we aren't pushing ourselves to be our best now, we may never achieve our highest potential. This is true in poker too. I'm grinding out a profit (lol well...not lately), but not nearly at the rate i would like. I think I've spent more time getting better at the "poker lifestyle" hookers + blow (j/k mom) than I have getting better at poker. So i'm hitting the coaching vids again, hard. I plan to watch one a day for next month and treating it as a class, taking notes, reviewing my sessions etc. We'll see if it has an effect on my winrate, and if not I'm content with the way things are right now. I am of the opinion that the difference between the best poker players in the world and kevin chad scott and me is when they started playing online seriously, and when we started seriously playing. In two years, if poker is still my job, I expect to be well known. If I'm not on the brink of being set for life I will be extremely dissapointed. This goes for my worldly vessel as well. If i'm not in the best shape of my life for these next two years, i will be extremely dissapointed.
I'm still in chicago, fresh off an hour of running biking and stair steppin. Things are going well here, My cuz's b/f is over, he seems harmless enough, but they've been dating for like 1.5 years or something and she's 15...WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF! 15 years old lets see...where was I...oh yes deathly affraid of women...thanks cooties (sp?) She's a little too grown up for my liking, and a little too bossy/acrid in tone. I fear she may have lost some youth somewhere along the way. She still makes me smile with her brute intelligence though, It's refreshing to be around someone who just GETS THINGS like super fast. It makes teaching so easy. I mean, I could prolly teach her everything I've ever known in 5 days and she'd retain like 95% of it. Colin is the exact opposite! He's gullible, he likes puns and cracks jokes that just KILL ME! He loves Frasier, and has already found the love of his life in photography and has unbelievable skill at it. He whistles constantly. He laughs all the time and is filled with youthful exuberence.
I feel like its a classic dichotemy, Narcissus and Goldmund. One a master of the studies and knowledge the other a possessor of worldly experience and a love of life.
Time to decide what to do for dinner now!
And try and figure out where you are on that sliding scale.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
Oh for god's sake
Last night i lost 3 buy-ins to a porn star on Full Tilt. Her name was "imreallyfamous" and I asked her why, she said she was known for films in some parts. I asked what kind of films, she proceeds to stack me thusly,
***** Hand History for Game 10330906961 *****
Seat 1 is the buttonSeat 1: GingerGoddess ( $274.00 USD )
Seat 2: imreallyfamous ( $148.25 USD )
GingerGoddess posts small blind [$1.00 USD].
imreallyfamous posts big blind [$2.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards
**Dealt to GingerGoddess [ 5d 4c ]
GingerGoddess raises [$5.00 USD]
imreallyfamous calls [$4.00 USD]
** Dealing Flop ** [ Kd, 4h, Ac ]
imreallyfamous bets [$12.00 USD]
GingerGoddess calls [$12.00 USD]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 5c ]
imreallyfamous checks
GingerGoddess bets
[$21.00 USD]imreallyfamous calls
[$21.00 USD]
** Dealing River **
[ 6d ]imreallyfamous checks
GingerGoddess bets [$40.00 USD]
imreallyfamous raises [$80.00 USD]
GingerGoddess calls [$40.00 USD]
imreallyfamous shows [6h, Ks ]
imreallyfamous wins $237.50 USD from main potGingerGoddess doesn't show [5d, 4c ]
Boy that 6 on the river was a pretty hardcore suck out :). But i digress... ADULT FILM she says (not all in caps, but it might as well have been) So anywaay I asked her how she became a porn star and if the money was good... to which she replied acting school in NYC and then moved to LA and needed money. Plausible enough. She also said she was contracted with Anabolic, a porn company...news to me (he he gulp). So then I asked her if shooting movies was fun or whether it was all work and no play (foreplay count?)
To which she replied it depends on who you're working with.
Who's your favorite to work with?
WOW she says...hmmm prolly Lex.
Lex Steele? I ask...prolly laying my hand face up on the table that i'm not as nieve as I originally thought.
YES she said.
Y do you like working with him?
and I qoute "His intellect!"......
To which I say...WHAAAAAAAT!?
Is that what you kids are calling it these days?
Lol she says and then proceeds to stack me again...thusly!
***** Hand History for Game 10331108642 *****
Dealt to GingerGoddess [ 7d 7h ]
imreallyfamous calls [$1.00 USD]
GingerGoddess raises [$5.00 USD]
imreallyfamous raises [$19.00 USD]
GingerGoddess raises [$45.00 USD]
imreallyfamous raises [$256.95 USD]
GingerGoddess calls [$170.30 USD]
imreallyfamous shows [Tc, Td ]
GingerGoddess shows [7d, 7h ]
imreallyfamous wins $55.65 USD
** Dealing Flop ** [ 8d, 4c, 4h ]** Dealing Turn ** [ 9d ]** Dealing River ** [ Ts ]
imreallyfamous wins $444.10 USD from main pot
So at this point...I know two things, she is definitely a porn star, and I definitely suck at poker. I know these things because she actually thought for a long time before calling down with 10's, a pretty standard play for a real poker player like me. But! A porn star would hesitate because she's seen a lot of Pocket rockets in her life, and knows the dangers of running into them repeatedly. I also know that I suck at poker, as I have lost about 4k in the past 5 days....to pornstars and donkeys.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO, I'm in Chicago with the most affectionate cat in the world "COSMO". Love him to death already but there's really no reason to sit on my face when i'm sleeping :/
Tonight is pizza night (or so i'm told by my cousins lol trevor=gullible). The flight was awesome, i must say that United's big planes are straight sick in business class. Walking through them to my coach seat was a bit like walking through the indoor showroom at a car dealership out to the used lot where ur "newsed" car sits.
So the world has turned me into a hitch hiker in a hailstorm on a deserted Nebraska road, can't get a ride, can't run and hide, can't make it stop. Just keep chanting, OHMMMMMMMMMM...
for I am the zen masta, for now
gl all
Trev
***** Hand History for Game 10330906961 *****
Seat 1 is the buttonSeat 1: GingerGoddess ( $274.00 USD )
Seat 2: imreallyfamous ( $148.25 USD )
GingerGoddess posts small blind [$1.00 USD].
imreallyfamous posts big blind [$2.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards
**Dealt to GingerGoddess [ 5d 4c ]
GingerGoddess raises [$5.00 USD]
imreallyfamous calls [$4.00 USD]
** Dealing Flop ** [ Kd, 4h, Ac ]
imreallyfamous bets [$12.00 USD]
GingerGoddess calls [$12.00 USD]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 5c ]
imreallyfamous checks
GingerGoddess bets
[$21.00 USD]imreallyfamous calls
[$21.00 USD]
** Dealing River **
[ 6d ]imreallyfamous checks
GingerGoddess bets [$40.00 USD]
imreallyfamous raises [$80.00 USD]
GingerGoddess calls [$40.00 USD]
imreallyfamous shows [6h, Ks ]
imreallyfamous wins $237.50 USD from main potGingerGoddess doesn't show [5d, 4c ]
Boy that 6 on the river was a pretty hardcore suck out :). But i digress... ADULT FILM she says (not all in caps, but it might as well have been) So anywaay I asked her how she became a porn star and if the money was good... to which she replied acting school in NYC and then moved to LA and needed money. Plausible enough. She also said she was contracted with Anabolic, a porn company...news to me (he he gulp). So then I asked her if shooting movies was fun or whether it was all work and no play (foreplay count?)
To which she replied it depends on who you're working with.
Who's your favorite to work with?
WOW she says...hmmm prolly Lex.
Lex Steele? I ask...prolly laying my hand face up on the table that i'm not as nieve as I originally thought.
YES she said.
Y do you like working with him?
and I qoute "His intellect!"......
To which I say...WHAAAAAAAT!?
Is that what you kids are calling it these days?
Lol she says and then proceeds to stack me again...thusly!
***** Hand History for Game 10331108642 *****
Dealt to GingerGoddess [ 7d 7h ]
imreallyfamous calls [$1.00 USD]
GingerGoddess raises [$5.00 USD]
imreallyfamous raises [$19.00 USD]
GingerGoddess raises [$45.00 USD]
imreallyfamous raises [$256.95 USD]
GingerGoddess calls [$170.30 USD]
imreallyfamous shows [Tc, Td ]
GingerGoddess shows [7d, 7h ]
imreallyfamous wins $55.65 USD
** Dealing Flop ** [ 8d, 4c, 4h ]** Dealing Turn ** [ 9d ]** Dealing River ** [ Ts ]
imreallyfamous wins $444.10 USD from main pot
So at this point...I know two things, she is definitely a porn star, and I definitely suck at poker. I know these things because she actually thought for a long time before calling down with 10's, a pretty standard play for a real poker player like me. But! A porn star would hesitate because she's seen a lot of Pocket rockets in her life, and knows the dangers of running into them repeatedly. I also know that I suck at poker, as I have lost about 4k in the past 5 days....to pornstars and donkeys.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO, I'm in Chicago with the most affectionate cat in the world "COSMO". Love him to death already but there's really no reason to sit on my face when i'm sleeping :/
Tonight is pizza night (or so i'm told by my cousins lol trevor=gullible). The flight was awesome, i must say that United's big planes are straight sick in business class. Walking through them to my coach seat was a bit like walking through the indoor showroom at a car dealership out to the used lot where ur "newsed" car sits.
So the world has turned me into a hitch hiker in a hailstorm on a deserted Nebraska road, can't get a ride, can't run and hide, can't make it stop. Just keep chanting, OHMMMMMMMMMM...
for I am the zen masta, for now
gl all
Trev
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tired
Getting tired of HAVING to be a zen master about poker...when will this slump turn around. The 4 leaf clovers are coming along nicely in my window sill perhaps they will bring me luck.
Unnnnnnnnnnfortunately, I'm headed to chicago for a week or so, so they'll prolly die :( that can't be good for my fortunes can it!!!! GULP.
Soooo peacock when u read this water my clovers!!! or i'll put some hoodoo voodoo hex on you!
Went to see slumdog millionaire tonight with a good friend whose name is too unique to put online. It was AMAAAZING!!! Definitly worth every penny.
Chicago...brace yourself.
Unnnnnnnnnnfortunately, I'm headed to chicago for a week or so, so they'll prolly die :( that can't be good for my fortunes can it!!!! GULP.
Soooo peacock when u read this water my clovers!!! or i'll put some hoodoo voodoo hex on you!
Went to see slumdog millionaire tonight with a good friend whose name is too unique to put online. It was AMAAAZING!!! Definitly worth every penny.
Chicago...brace yourself.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Zen Master
So poker has been a bit rough lately, i'm about 1k under expectation the past 3 days, which hasn't been fun. It's okay though, cause I got Rock Band 2 and can just jam out to Modest Mouse's "Float On" when things aren't going my way at the tables. I'm proud of myself for taking this downswing well, because in the past this may have affected my daily mood.
In other news, tonight was the first normal night in a while, as on monday we went to the Wizards v. Suns game, and as anyone who is a true wiz fan knows, its only possible to enjoy them somewhere in the realm of this: tipsy <-- wiz game enjoyable--->blackout. They once again kept it intersting until the 4th quarter when they showed their true colors and lost huge. However, all was not lost, as Myself, Eric and Dave had prop bets throughout the game which provided much entertainment (and mooolah to me :).
Then we went to Fuddruckers, home of the 1lb burger...and I don't shy from a challenge. The consumption of the burger was completed, but not without sacrifice as my love handles grew 3 sizes that day. I couldn't sleep that night despite my serious case of the "itis" (a term used in the tower to describe a food coma). It was awful...i was drowsy...tipsy...and completely incapable of sleeping for no apparent reason.
I also took care of a nagging credit card problem (i misplaced it at some juncture of a night out with scotty and the wv crew). While i was at the bank cancelling my life support, I couldn't help but notice the striking beauty of my bank teller. She was latina and wore a pair of glasses that seemed a part of her since birth. You ever see facial accessories like that, just so much a part of some beautiful person's character that you wouldn't want to imagine them without said item? Anyway, I began to wonder what kind of person I would have to be to get a date with this goddess of BBT. She already knew my bank account balance, and I doubt she's believe that i have 30k on stars (what's stars? she would ask) or that poker playing is a real profession or that I was anything other than a kid fresh out of college with little more than a pittance and a pension for losing important things. Its funny to think about the people we'll never have a chance with because they just know too much or the wrong things or perhaps the truth... So i grabbed a sucker and bid my muse farewell and Floated On...
Going to see slum dog tomorrow...
got my weight lifting bench its beauuuutiful and will certainly motivate me to get in the best shape of my life so i can crush this 5 min mile!
Best wishes all,
and to all a good night...'s sleep
In other news, tonight was the first normal night in a while, as on monday we went to the Wizards v. Suns game, and as anyone who is a true wiz fan knows, its only possible to enjoy them somewhere in the realm of this: tipsy <-- wiz game enjoyable--->blackout. They once again kept it intersting until the 4th quarter when they showed their true colors and lost huge. However, all was not lost, as Myself, Eric and Dave had prop bets throughout the game which provided much entertainment (and mooolah to me :).
Then we went to Fuddruckers, home of the 1lb burger...and I don't shy from a challenge. The consumption of the burger was completed, but not without sacrifice as my love handles grew 3 sizes that day. I couldn't sleep that night despite my serious case of the "itis" (a term used in the tower to describe a food coma). It was awful...i was drowsy...tipsy...and completely incapable of sleeping for no apparent reason.
I also took care of a nagging credit card problem (i misplaced it at some juncture of a night out with scotty and the wv crew). While i was at the bank cancelling my life support, I couldn't help but notice the striking beauty of my bank teller. She was latina and wore a pair of glasses that seemed a part of her since birth. You ever see facial accessories like that, just so much a part of some beautiful person's character that you wouldn't want to imagine them without said item? Anyway, I began to wonder what kind of person I would have to be to get a date with this goddess of BBT. She already knew my bank account balance, and I doubt she's believe that i have 30k on stars (what's stars? she would ask) or that poker playing is a real profession or that I was anything other than a kid fresh out of college with little more than a pittance and a pension for losing important things. Its funny to think about the people we'll never have a chance with because they just know too much or the wrong things or perhaps the truth... So i grabbed a sucker and bid my muse farewell and Floated On...
Going to see slum dog tomorrow...
got my weight lifting bench its beauuuutiful and will certainly motivate me to get in the best shape of my life so i can crush this 5 min mile!
Best wishes all,
and to all a good night...'s sleep
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Wild Weekend
Ok lets see....where to begin, where to begin. I guess its pertinent to start with WVU's Men's basketball team laying a drubbing on georgetown, the game was great and remained close till the end of the second half when WV's outside shooting and lock em down D took over. Had a beer or two but Verizon center doesn't let alcohol get served after the first half of college games...to curb drunk driving (what a weird expression when it would be my preference to keep drunk drivers from driving ON the curb but w/e). A friend of mine from highschool came out that I hadn't seen in FOREVER, and he is always a blast to drink with as his mouth loses its filter with anyone and everyone. We went to an irish bar, me and the motown crew; it was just like old times, times I miss alot.
Scotty's girl came out as well and immediately proved my theory that women (particularly hott women as courtney is) are just better at the bar than men. Within nanoseconds of hitting the mass of people at the entry of the bar she did her best Nightcrawler impression and snagged 6 beers a mixed drink and a spot in the room with a lil space to breath. As if that wasn't enough, within minutes she had our group of six comfortably seated at a table in this chill back area of the restaurant...INSANE! So kudos hott women everywhere...as if things weren't easy enough for you already.
Bottom line is, the night ended without me knowing when, where, or how (but not who thankfully)! The next night would bring Tom and Eric up from Cville to hang out at a crusty rusty pole reunion. It was another night to be remembered more for the great people in it than the new people or exciting happenings. I did possibly land some live poker action. Herbie a local donkament player challenged me to a heads up match for 1k 300bb's deep (retardedly deep). I guess blinds would be like $1.666/ 3.333 (just more proof that herbie has no idea how to play hu) lol. I shouldn't underestimate him tho as he has won a LARGE full ring tournament on UB!!!
Those are not results to be laughed at...
The best thing that happened that night was me not getting trashed AND finding out that Union Jack's has potential as a walking distance bar/ dance club on weekends (place is a dive during the week). So YAY!
Then there was last night, just wow...my liver is going to mutiny. Whitlow's despite Rimi's best efforts to get me to Adam's Morgan (something that I still haven't wrapped my head around as her friends and I rarely hang out...but I'd like to! so its sad i didn't get to go as they're a chill group of girls). Whitlow's waaaas awesome. The tower (our current residence) crew went out with the additions of Zoey and Xtina. Great cover band, ahole bouncers and a solid back bar with the biggest stoner tender of all time. If bars had "trophy tenders" this guy would have been it, he waaas useless with a tendency to overpoor the liquor and forget the mixer alltogether (an owners nightmare). But GOGOGOGO for me!
Everyone's in bed and I think now is the time to unlock EVERLONG so i'll cut this post short....oh god...its not short at all! SORRY!
Scotty's girl came out as well and immediately proved my theory that women (particularly hott women as courtney is) are just better at the bar than men. Within nanoseconds of hitting the mass of people at the entry of the bar she did her best Nightcrawler impression and snagged 6 beers a mixed drink and a spot in the room with a lil space to breath. As if that wasn't enough, within minutes she had our group of six comfortably seated at a table in this chill back area of the restaurant...INSANE! So kudos hott women everywhere...as if things weren't easy enough for you already.
Bottom line is, the night ended without me knowing when, where, or how (but not who thankfully)! The next night would bring Tom and Eric up from Cville to hang out at a crusty rusty pole reunion. It was another night to be remembered more for the great people in it than the new people or exciting happenings. I did possibly land some live poker action. Herbie a local donkament player challenged me to a heads up match for 1k 300bb's deep (retardedly deep). I guess blinds would be like $1.666/ 3.333 (just more proof that herbie has no idea how to play hu) lol. I shouldn't underestimate him tho as he has won a LARGE full ring tournament on UB!!!
Those are not results to be laughed at...
The best thing that happened that night was me not getting trashed AND finding out that Union Jack's has potential as a walking distance bar/ dance club on weekends (place is a dive during the week). So YAY!
Then there was last night, just wow...my liver is going to mutiny. Whitlow's despite Rimi's best efforts to get me to Adam's Morgan (something that I still haven't wrapped my head around as her friends and I rarely hang out...but I'd like to! so its sad i didn't get to go as they're a chill group of girls). Whitlow's waaaas awesome. The tower (our current residence) crew went out with the additions of Zoey and Xtina. Great cover band, ahole bouncers and a solid back bar with the biggest stoner tender of all time. If bars had "trophy tenders" this guy would have been it, he waaas useless with a tendency to overpoor the liquor and forget the mixer alltogether (an owners nightmare). But GOGOGOGO for me!
Everyone's in bed and I think now is the time to unlock EVERLONG so i'll cut this post short....oh god...its not short at all! SORRY!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Agenda
Things to do today:
Buy Bowflex weight set off ebay
Make 1k
Get 1000 ftps
Watch WVU take on Gtown
Bar hop with tha best of the best
Not blackout!!!!
I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow!!!
Buy Bowflex weight set off ebay
Make 1k
Get 1000 ftps
Watch WVU take on Gtown
Bar hop with tha best of the best
Not blackout!!!!
I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow!!!
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